Frustration

At first I enjoyed having a whole bunch of new friends, and I still do. Moving to a new school, and surrounding myself with new people was really exiting. Unfortunatly it's now becoming frustrating...

Throughout my years in the "Poco" school system, I had a small group of friends. These few friends were exeptionally close though, and we talked about everything that came to our heads. We never had to fear each other cause we already knew all of our feelings, wants, and needs. Sure, I longed to have more friends, but I never knew how the exact social ladder worked outside of my group. We were sort of misfits in elementary school, and shaped up as we went through middle school. When I went on to Port Moody Secondary, I had learned pretty much all of the social lessons, and was exited to make new friends, which I did at a rapid pace.

I made jokes, I love making people laugh. Unfortunately I went pretty far sometimes. Ex: Doing pushups in the middle of St.Johns street. It got people laughing, but the IB crowd thought it was "stupid person" stunts. I have lots of friends in the IB program, but most of them just think im an idiot, and never really give me a chance to show my intellect, just make them laugh. When I hang out with normal public school people, theres allways this weird thing that most people do, where they just act like their a black person, a rocker, or a pervert. There can be no combinations of identities in the non-IB populace.

Of coarse these are just generalizations, theres the occasional good person to talk to, but honestly most are just acting out some steriotype. I yearn for a good buddy that I can just talk to without having to worry if I sound stupid, or sound boring.

Its like i'm a movie. I seems that i'm being advirtized as a Fratboy Comedy, one of those movies like Harold and Kumar, or Road Trip. Personally I perseive myself as a smart Romantic Comedy... thats right romance! I can be deep, passionate, and funny all at once, not just stupid, everybody has a little stupid.

I'm not saying that anyone who reads this blog are these identity humping people that I am describing. I try not to give the link to those people just incase I write something rather personal like this... but lately I just seem to be running into them often, and end up having a real good convorsation without borders less...

Grrr...

Don't worry im not going emo on you all! I'll post something funnier soon!